Sarah's

2011-05-10T21:31:00.000+08:00

AGAIN and AGAIN.

I'm too soft for this shit. I dont want to be hurt!

Please stop messing my mind so much.

bring me closer to god

2011-05-05T02:13:00.000+08:00

You let me violate you, You let me disgraces you You let me complicate you, you let me penetrate you.. I wanna fuck you like an animal..
-Maroon 5

This is really turning me on honestly and Zack isnt helping me much with his 4 and a half pack, masculine arms and charming looks.

Off the shelf, on to my tab.

2011-04-26T01:26:00.000+08:00

Sometimes.. well actually most times.

Which is bad.

I stress myself by just wondering and imagining too bloody much

And I always

cause I wont stop thinking.

This will be no doubt but another typical teenage post but I feel crafty with photos on Tumblr. It does describe some of my emotion at times so I'm gonna try doing this pretty much how I feel about myself.

Through out my childhood, I was that tall, scary girl that noone likes. Even now as a adolescence, I'm still a loner.

I once had a bf, but he had too many

hiding away.

Then soon, I went for my national services. We drifted and I felt even more insecure than ever.

I felt just like this.

Nothing could get me out of my thoughts.

No matter how adorable or how distractive things comes by me, I wont even give a fuck about it.

Cause all I know is..

and it's a fact.

I know, I have to get out of my head.
but it's hard..

I know myself i can be stronger than I think I am. So my solution is Expression.

it does help in fact, my mind floats off and never comes back.

And when it gets off hands, by all means.

having a puff.

partying/ rocking out all night.

-Drink till I forget where the fuck I am.

yeah, simple ain't it?

But you see, I don't do this anymore. (In terms of smoking)

I want to leave that old person away, I dont want to suffer and make myself feel unwanted. To end my misery in my own world and thoughts.

I'm not as dainty and pretty as most girls are.

Nor am I the perfect woman you'll ever wake up to.

I am who I am, I'm different.

so then I followed what I'd like to be..

Okay, maybe not like that.. but I had blue hair too (:

But who am I to kid? I'm only cheating myself knowing that even if I became confident and strong again, I'll still be alone.
Most of them time, I've been so fake to myself.
So fake to others I meet online.

The real me, I love doing this

That's right, Black Ops alllll the way.

Then later, my fucking mind will just switch over, making me feel crap and lonely. A complete social outcast..

Noone wants to.. After I've lost that one person that I truly had feelings, I think to myself, 'there's plenty of fishes out there, but why can't they see me as a nice person rather than staring at my boobs?'

Then I spend my nights sulking and talking to my friends on instant messenger.
Pretending everything's alright.

Sometimes I wish I can wake up floating away

not worrying about anything.. just float till I reach a land.
Maybe just waking up to this,

to a new day.

A new me.

To have someone next to me in the morning.

And have a happy life. I don't need the same experience I had once, I just want to be wanted again. To know why I'm still living without finding.

I maybe dating someone now but it seems like we're too far apart.

we're like this, most time when we visit each other.
But the thing is...

i hate this distance.
i hate not being in your arms.
i hate not falling asleep with you.
i hate not being able to hold your hand.
i hate not looking into your eyes.
i hate not kissing you.
i hate not feeling you on my skin.
i hate not cuddling with you.
i hate all of this.

but you’re worth it.
you’re worth every single damn second.

Sincerly yours,

Sarah Yong.

this is why we girls need makeup.

2011-04-16T18:45:00.000+08:00

Before..

As you can see the flaws on my skin, heavy dark eye circles and a bruised on my left eyebrow (Long story short: I'm cursed in playing any games which involves with ball)

So, I shall present you the magic.

After layers of concealer and compact powder foundation, bronzer, blusher, dark silver and shimmer silver eyeshadow, eyeliner and mascara..
This is the result:

dont ask me why I look like I'm from Forks. (Twilight)

One thing is missing, which is lip colour. So I applied a cheer pink lipstick

Still alright, not too bad. Only then the real deal was letting down my hair.
Results:

Tadaaaa! :D

I'm not gonna lie, I did photoshop some photos but the ones I posted above are original.
This is one photoshop-ed photo:

edit the eyes only, making it bright and green.

So guys, dont be fooled by pretty face.

could be layers of cake make up

good example; Me.

-Sarah

2011-04-01T20:58:00.001+08:00

Thank you all for following me. sincerly, Sarah Yong

2011-03-17T21:11:00.002+08:00

it's easier to say than to do. It's even easier just thinking about it and not telling out or doing anything. me? it's easier to do, mindlessly.

What makes a person an Individuals.

2011-03-17T21:02:00.001+08:00

No matter how much of effort you throw into you work of a post just to get your name, it’s either you’ll face the point of fall straight down smashing to your face or rise just a heel higher. I’ve been through some experiences, so why I am in a character building class that is set in my country’s National Services? The system teaches us how to understand and observe the current situation and also makes us play silly games just so we can feel as if the world has collide into our humanity thinkings. In a general view: there’s always Pro’s and Con’s to every single situation, the question is.. Do you dare to take the risk, Are you able to comprehend the situation and manage the task that will be given and handle the obstacles in between the way? From my point of view: if you’re smart enough to not take a shit of a fucked situation, congratulations. you are able to survive in this world. Different people has different problems, story backgrounds, likings and thinking. Without differences, the world/country/citizen will be the fucking same shit, it wont make various individuals. Realization and awakening are important for self awareness, yes? To most of us who has succeeded in life either by achieving your life time goal or even by the shortest aim to have, we all have the same side of good and bad unless you played with the safe rule and fair&square. Good: Strove hard enough and carried a burden effort in us to obtain the target goal. Bad: Hunger for more, willing to do bad things (eg killing, destroying, blackmailing.. blahh), greedy & selfish. I may not be wise enough to say more about this kind of classes or teaching but one thing is for sure since I’m attending this ridiculous CB classes that I’ve already been through in life, it’s a waste of time. I understand that every single country has shitty useless mugs and crooks around but that shouldnt meant that this Services and CB classes should be gone off, no. But it should be taught to the people who needed it more than the ones who already know how to survive and get along among the society.

I am me.

2010-11-17T22:40:00.003+08:00

hi. for those of you who dont know. I used to blog, alot. Now, I dont know if I should keep it up since I've already been through many kinds of trouble and bullshit and to think of it. If that person couldnt accept me, maybe being me is not good enough for him/her. well, FUCK YOU HIM/HER. if you're so fucking great, go fly a kite while getting a Chelsea smile yeah? anyway, i wont waste my time emphasizing on that. Now remember, if that person doesnt accept you for who you are.. give 'em the "FUCK YOU" smile and have a nice day.